The day is dreary. Not like the others this past week. It is hard to get motivated to do anything. My mind wanders and sadness fills my heart. I can't escape the longing that tears me apart. I am running out of recent pictures of my boy to post. This pierces my heart. The finality of all this. I still can't believe he is gone. I can't stay in these emotions. They are temporal and shifty. My hope is in the LORD; and that is where I will put my trust. That is where my focus will stay. I will not give way ... View Post
What Does Peace Look Like Today?
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. Peace. Isn't that what we all want? Trouble in Syria, Government shut downs, irate workers wielding guns. A world gone mad. Where is there Peace? One party against another. . .each one placing blame. Where does one turn? My son is home with the LORD. His body returned to the ground; never to touch or hear his voice again this side of eternity. We wait for a call for ... View Post
Maybe We Will Survive
The reality of our son not being here for the rest of our lives, is weighing heavy on my heart. The missing is overpowering at times. It takes my breath away. I feel as if my heart will break. And really, it has; into a million pieces. . . The pieces are being replaced day by day. Prayer by prayer. But it will never be the same. Deuteronomy 7:9 Know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations, The equipment on ... View Post
Prayer
The Sun streams through the parlor window. It casts a brilliant beam. Christiana calls to me to come and see. It is beautiful. Something so captivating about streams of light. (It could possibly be my ADD) What if we could climb that beam right up to heaven, I ask her. Right up to see Elijah. What would be the first thing I would do if I could see him again? I think I would just fall to my knees, too over come. Oh, to touch him, hear his voice, see those blue eyes. And I wonder. . . Am I that zealous to see God? Do I look at every sunbeam and think about climbing right up to heaven ... View Post
When You Think The Journey Can’t Get Any Harder
I am thankful for the time. I sit in the doctors office. I am writing very over due thank you notes while I wait for my farmer. He is having a simple procedure to remove a cyst from his face. I notice the waiting room start to fill. This doesn't seem like a place that runs behind. I glance at my watch and am shocked to see how much time has passed. I can feel it in the pit of my stomach. Something is wrong. The nurse comes out and ushers me back to the room. My farmer is sitting with his back to me. The doctor shares the news. He could not remove the mass because it is not a ... View Post
I Have Placed Before Him My Very Best
Nineteen years ago, I awoke to a gorgeous fall day. The sun was shining. The air crisp. Leaves vibrant in color. I drove to work. I was 14 weeks along. I carried within me, life. I remember it like it was yesterday. I took a more scenic route. I praised the LORD the whole way to work. My heart sang for joy. Later that night my joy turned to utter desolation as I began spotting and would ultimately lose the child I so desperately wanted. I would look for someone to drive me to the hospital because Gary was spreading manure and I couldn't get in ... View Post
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