What are you waiting for? The question seems to hover. Ideas and thoughts run through my head. Yet, somehow, I am paralyzed to move forward. Excuses. Walls. Fear. And I wonder, What am I waiting for? I have learned how fragile life is. I know deep loss and unbearable ache. I know time is short. But how do you make the best of it? Do you search for the unknown and take all kinds of risks? Or do you slowly, safely make your way through? What are you waiting for? The question haunts me. Am I motivated by fear or faith? I have never been a risk taker and I don't like to ... View Post
Maybe God Thought America Needed A Reset?
Wow. It's all I can muster these days. Wow. I wonder how these days will go down in history? Will they be known as the days of selfishness and hoarding? Or will we be known for turning Panic to Peace? And Fear to Faith? Maybe America needed a reset? Will the news be filled with acts of kindness far beyond the scope of imagination? Or will we hear of greed and senseless acts of harm? As farmers, the day to day will continue. Animals need to be fed. Chores need to be done. A routine. A rhythm. A steady beat our oldest son seemed to thrive on. Our nation; our world is facing ... View Post
May I Have Your Attention?
May I have your attention? Good. We have an announcement. And we'll have more coming up later this month! So, stay tuned. I haven't been writing. The busyness of the day, leaves me exhausted. Thoughts. Emotions. Tyranny of the urgent. I have run to the pen and paper and wrestled the thoughts there in a leather bound journal. Swirling, whirling ideas and feelings. These times are rich and full. Life. Graduations and new adventures. Visits with farmettes and their parents. The oldest pursuing a master's degree, the Nurse starting her job, the farm boy so busy with ... View Post
Winter is Still Here
I multi task. I used to do that much better. Now. I am often distracted. Yet, here I am. Sauteing the Garlic and onions. They sizzle and pop. I stir another pot filled with savory chicken and rice soup. The kitchen warmth radiates on this cold morning. The day is expected to get warmer. A break from the brutal wind and harsh cold of this winter. We're knee deep in taxes. The farmhouse table oozing with files and statements. I dislike this month. Even though it is the shortest. For some reason it seems to crawl at a snails pace. Winter clutches with vengeance. The sun remains ... View Post
They’re Free, 30 Days of Thankfulness, Day #13
They're free! These calves have been indoors since they were born. Tied up. Limited range. Stored feed. So different from our intended practices. With the destruction of both of our barns last fall, the housing for calves and heifers was damaged as well leaving no place for calves to be raised. A fencing project that began 5 years ago when the farm boy still walked this earth was finally completed. The youngest farm girl and my farmer pushed hard this week to accomplish this goal. We watched for awhile as the calves became accustomed to their new digs! Our only wish is that ... View Post
They’re Both Gone
Both of my boys are gone. Both left the same way. The clothes on their backs, their wallets and a hug for their mama. So much the same. Yet different. That oldest farm boy, a Poole in the delayed entry program for the Marines, never came back. He hugged me good bye. His gaze lingered with mine, and out the door he went. He never came home. His bed empty. Clothes on the floor just as he left them. Gone. Forever. Leaving me with an ache that still cuts like a knife. Now the second born farm boy. He leaves too. Clothes on the floor, just as he left them. The feeling so ... View Post
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