I took a more scenic route.
My heart sang for joy.
Gary was spreading manure and
I couldn’t get in touch with him.
They placed warm blankets on me.
So, on September 30, 1994 God allowed Gary and I to walk
through the valley of the shadow of death.
God called our baby home.
beauty of God’s grace through that time.
the truth that children are a gift from the LORD;
And I mourned for what would not be. . .
My faith grew as I leaned on God to heal my hurt;
as I wondered if we would ever have children.
So, like Hannah, I began to pray.
I Samuel 1:27-28
I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him.
So now I give him to the Lord.
For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.
In God’s Mercy, I would bring forth life.
This journey was different. I was changed.
I realized how precious life was
and how quickly it can be taken from you.
Most of the pregnancy was over shadowed with the thought of another loss.
And we prayed.
If the baby was a boy, we were going to honor Gary’s Grandfather,
and name him Cedric.
On a warm afternoon in the barn, during milking,
while I was very heavy with child,
I heard the LORD say to name him Elijah.
(this is not a common occurrence)
On September 2, 1995, after a grueling birth.
God blessed us with our prayed for child:
Elijah Todd Davis
9 lbs 1 oz
22 1/2 inches
17 years, and 330 days later, God would unexpectedly
(to us here on earth) call that prayed for son home.
And once again, I would shake as the life I carried and nurtured was taken from me.
I remembered those words of Hannah so well.
I Samuel 1:27-28
I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him.
So now I give him to the Lord.
For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
To serve him is my goal. . .
“Whatever’s mine. . .He’s given me. . It’s not my own. .
It’s His alone. . .”
I have placed before Him Nothing less than my very best.
And I have been called to sacrifice. .
And it is worthy of my Christ. . .
This has cost me everything.
Dawn González says
May God grant you comfort today as you remember two losses and heap sorrow upon sorrow. Today, I hope for tomorrow, and I love you.
davisfarm says
Thank you. Love you too! The day got a little more complicated. . .I'll share more tomorrow. Thank for carrying us through in prayer. . .
Julie Ruegsegger says
Elijah–The Lord is my God! I love you so much and I pray that you will know the grace of His comforting presence today.
davisfarm says
Yes, The LORD is my God. Words written in my bible. . .The day became very complicated. Continue to pray. . . Love you too and so appreciate and need the prayers. . .
Pam Bloch says
Hi Tammy, You don't know me, but I have been reading your blog and am awed by the strength you continue to find to face the world every day. I heard this music video and immediately thought of you. It is an incredible A Capella version of I Need Thee Oh I Need Thee.
http://www.godvine.com/This-is-One-A-Capella-Hymn-You-HAVE-to-Listen-to-You-ll-Be-Stunned–3994.html
davisfarm says
Thank you. Many have shared this with me privately, on FB and now here. So true. . .Oh how we need him. .. not as a sign of weakness. . .but the greatest of strength. Blessings