When we are quiet and still. God meets us. He is everlasting and true. Each day that passes takes us further away from the accident. But closer to Christ's return. I struggle with wrapping my arms around this entire journey. I Corinthians 13;12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. This morning I again lean into the door frame of Elijah's room. The pain still permeates the heart like a knife. I try to twist from the pain. I want to gently rub his ... View Post
Proclaiming His Testimony
49 days after he gave his Senior Testimony Elijah Todd Davis went home to be with the LORD. Here is his testimony. Are you ready to meet the LORD? Do you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the LORD is King? And that you're heaven bound? Do you have a peace that passes all understanding? None of us had any idea that when Elijah kissed me good bye and bounded out the door Saturday evening, July 28, 2013, that he would never come home. That he would fall asleep at the wheel. . .and when he would open his eyes he would be in the presence of the King of ... View Post
Digging Through the Fog.
As I dig through the fog each morning. I cry to God to find unspoken peace in Him. I settle there. . .for a while. Even in the midst of this deep anguish, we can find hope. We need to dig through the dirt and mire to find the core. The core of our souls that longs to find redemption. We each were created for a reason and a purpose. That gives me hope. It sets my feet on solid ground. As I grapple with this new life, I trust that God will guide my steps. When waves of grief flood my soul and I think I can not bear it any longer. . .it is too much. When all of me wants to scream, No! This can't ... View Post
The Beat of the Heart
Today is my parents Anniversary. It would have been their 47th. Last year we celebrated their 46th in the hospital at Brigham and Woman's. The doctors brought them a cake. . . honoring their years together as mom's life slipped slowly from her. . .I have said before, my parents relationship was NOT perfect. They fought, said hurtful things, threatened to break that vow they had once cherished. Yet, they stuck it out. They persevered. And it became beautiful. This year mom celebrates in Heaven. . .that perfect Bride of Christ. . . It was interesting to watch as dad's memory ... View Post
Changing
Today I changed my clock. The incessant flashing, now a steady glow. It is the cry of my heart that our lives will reflect the steady glow of Christ. That memories of Elijah will flood our hearts. You know what a mother fears. . . after her child is gone? Is that his memory fades. How does the seed of love . . .the child that left you scarred. . .fade? These are things I think about. These are things that bring me to my knees grasping to hold on to our loving God. I blink back tears. I still can't believe he is gone. I don't want him to just be a memory. He had so much to ... View Post
Though you Slay Me
As I walk this path of grief I am learning new things. I struggle with the dichotomy of joy, that Elijah is with Jesus, and deep anguish because I miss him. But I am learning. If I really believe what I say I do, then there is no dichotomy. Church was beautiful. Thomas and Christian, 2 of Elijah's friends, shared a medley, "Worn". The words to the first part were from , "Cry to Jesus." Oh how often I have cried out to Jesus; pleaded with the Author of the Universe that this is NOT my path. . . Yet what am I crying? Will I only take the good that He has to offer? That when ... View Post
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