I was plagued by a debilitating headache yesterday. One that wouldn't let go. It's grip tight. I had time too. My kids were all out of the house. Such a rare occurrence. But I was so unproductive. It took me all day to balance the check book. One item in a long list of tasks needed to be completed. I felt frustrated and annoyed. The last time I experienced a headache that debilitating was 2 days before Elijah met Jesus. It rendered me useless. Driving me to bed - which rarely happens. I remember it ... View Post
What I Am Learning In The Silence
There is silence. Where I thought there would be conversations and sharing. There is very little. I struggle. I train my heart to pray. It is hard work. Silence is good. Silence is healthy. I am not a silent person. I fill space with words. I sort through life's hardships shattering silence. But here. Now. With one in heaven and two in Haiti. Silence follows me. Internet scarce. Silence. A sound foreign to me. Unsettling. Until. Until, I take notice. I see what God is trying ... View Post
Be Anxious For Nothing
Be anxious for nothing. Only when I have prayed hard? No need to be anxious. When I have saved enough money in my retirement? No need to be anxious. When I have anticipated every problem and am assured that I have done every thing to thwart an issue. Then I do not need to be anxious. When do we not be anxious? What about the time when you haven't prayed? That item left off the list. When something isn't planned all the way through. Is that the time to be anxious? Be anxious for nothing. My son walks out the door. He kisses me. He says he ... View Post
It’s The Receiving That Is So Hard
He's here. A man who offered to pray for our family 1600 miles away. He has connections and mutual friends here in the area. He prayed. During those long months of chemo and radiation and dense fog. He prayed; for us. When I could barely put a foot in front of the other. He prayed. He sent encouraging e-mails. A stranger. Now friend. Brothers and sisters in Christ. He wanted to do something. Something for us. We didn't know what to say. And now he's here. How do you say anything when ... View Post
What Bales, Prayer and Death Have Taught Me
The bales keep coming. Load after load. 11 bales a wagon load. Winter's feed. Wrapped in a cocoon. Prepared for winter. These bales. I wrote on these bales last year. Prayers. Praise. I love you Elijah. Bales I prayed over. Hopes for a plentiful winter. Hopes for a smoother road. A different pace from the walk of the death of my mom, flooding and bumpy financial issues. That's not what happened. 3 days later, my son fell asleep at the wheel of our family car and met Jesus. 3 months later, ... View Post
Changing The Desires Of My Heart
I wash dishes. Over the sink is the verse; Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. I have glanced at these words now for weeks. Each and every day. I read them. I let the words sink in. Words of truth. The Ancient Word. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. I cry out to God to hold me. To give me strength. Sometimes I feel like I am going through the motions. Blindly stepping on the ... View Post
