Our Community mourns the loss of another young child. An accident. A bike. A heart ache so deep. We on the farm hurt as we pray for this family and long to ease their ache. Our days have turned to years. 7 years our boy has been gone. Today marks 8 birthdays we've celebrated without him. I never know how to handle this day. Some days I just want to run. Run from the searing pain; The memories and excitement of being a mom. The grace of the years raising children. Other days I want to dig in and remember. To hold tightly to the days and years we had together. I close my eyes and ... View Post
A re-post on Community
I posted this 3-24-18. I'm missing these gatherings and sense of Community. Yet, there is something else happening. I hope we all notice and take note. We're being creative. There's a sense of slowness. Neighbors helping neighbors. A little more outward perspective is happening. I don't want to miss the lessons we need to learn in this time. `````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` March 24, 2018 Small town living. Community. A fun reminder today of the uniqueness of this place we call home. The ... View Post
Small Town Living – Community
Small town living. Community. A fun reminder today of the uniqueness of this place we call home. The sun shone brightly. The temperatures tipped the scale at 34! The wind ceased it's assault and for moments it felt warm. I hung my sheets to dry. The change isn't here yet. But soon. Very soon the wind will shift and bring the warmer air. Some brave birds have taken up their chorus of welcome I head to the local market. Still fairly new, I marvel at how quickly I can get there. I drop the farm girls off at the Middle School, and head over to the store. I think of the years this ... View Post
Stepping Forward; It’s Been 2 years
I want to stand in front of the pole And will it to not be. As if being there at the time of the accident could stop it from happening. I stare at the pole. Someone has so lovingly mowed this area and planted flowers. The knowledge that someone else remembers fills my aching soul. It is now 2 years since our boy walked this earth. 2 years of walking a path that is rough and ragged. This time has been filled with life - full, and moving on. Some days the moving on is so deeply painful. It takes all I am to ... View Post
Can You Be Jesus To Someone Today? Day #4 of Thankfulness
She knocks on my door. A former colleague and friend. One I haven't seen in a while. She stands there at the door. We hug for a long time. She who encouraged and loved on me those years of teaching and being with child. Cards when our dreams and hopes were dashed with a miscarriage. Rejoicing when we found that grace had visited us and I swelled with new life. A baby shower for Elijah. This woman. Kind, soft and gentle. Here, at my door. Bringing comfort on a day that was hard. She brought a card and a ... View Post
When The Dark Is Illuminated
They've taken the floor off the porch. Bare. Exposed beams and 26 years of darkness. Rags, pans, leaves all brought to light. Accumulated through the years. Like our sins. Hidden where no one can see. Private. Yet choking. Holding you in bondage. While you wallow in the dark. It isn't until the exposure that the cleaning; the healing, can begin. The light transcends the darkness . It shatters what was. There is relief when the dark is illuminated. Hiding takes work. Much to conceal. In the revealing ... View Post
