There are so many changes on the Horizon. Graduation. Our parents home has sold. Change of seasons. I dig in and recoil. It's too much. I can feel the anxiety. I can feel the uncertainty. I snap at a question. My heart is weighed down. The weather is not helping. Haying is late. Money is tight. The farm chores extend late. Equipment to fix. Pastures to fence. A constant flow of work. It's been 46 months. Time sometimes the enemy. I feel the knot in my stomach. I have never been a worrier. I usually take things in stride. Things have slowly changed and I feel the ... View Post
The Assurance of Knowing
Often we are stretched. Beyond what we feel we can handle. We breathe deep. We long for relief. Yet, these circumstances are here to help us grow. To change us. It's been 35 months of being stretched. There are many more months to go. The missing deep. The walk each day a choice. I am only responsible for the here and now. To live this moment in surrender. I will let the rest of the moments be dealt with in time. In the pew, on Sunday, the children sat between my farmer and I . 4 of ... View Post
Forced Seclusion Begins a Much Needed De-Cluttering
I'm forced to seclusion. My allergies overpowering. My air conditioned bedroom; my reprieve. Haying, lawn mowing, beautiful blossoms; all causing me discomfort. So, I head to my bedroom. On a gloriously sunny day. I am forced to look at the clutter. The piles of clothes. The boxes of paper. Most of it needing to go. I begin the process. Cards sent when our world shattered. When our first born son was called to glory at 17. When cancer threatened to take a good man down. When the joy thief knocked ... View Post
Reconstructing
Reconstructing. Each day. How to do dinner. What the table looks like. His car in the driveway. All how to live without my son. Each day.Learning. The path. God has ordained. Not my will. But His. And so I learn. While my heart misses. I open my heart to the will of the Father. A young teen plays Elijah's drum set at church. A young man unaware of the story. Playing to Worship. The same God. All for His Glory. So I learn, to trust more. Rest where there is chaos. Quiet when ... View Post
She Could Do Anything. . . Really.
The waiting. Our hearts. Preparing. Adoring.Longing; For Hope. Eternity. Love came down. Incarnate. Flesh. For me. For you. Once. For All. 14 years ago today a beautiful woman bowed low as she journeyed to meet Jesus. Her presence is missed everyday. The lessons she lived, still in our hearts. Here is a tribute to her from last year. She now resides with 2 of her beautiful grandchildren; whom she loved and adored with all her ... View Post
That Inner Circle Day #18 of Thankfulness
Spent a lovely evening out last night. Amazing food and service. Treated by friends who never seem to let us go. Holding us close. Caring. Checking in. Helping us move forward. Friendship. Beautiful. Cultivated. Grace. Surround yourself with those that encourage and challenge you. We are blessed to have those in our life who continue to walk with us. Fill your world with those that seek to see you more like Christ. Take inventory of that inner circle. When that circle is spurring you on; you have ... View Post
