Today is the anniversary of Davis Farm's first blog post. Little did I know then how this blog would become an outlet for my expression through deep grief and cancer. How I would wrestle with all things eternal. It seems like just yesterday that Gary and the kids went off to the Williston Parade. As usual there had been much activity. It was nice to have a few moments to myself. I can't remember what I did with those moments. I am sure I made an ice cream cake for Eleanor's birthday. I probably wrote the post. But most ... View Post
When Words Fail
For the first time in months. The words don't come. For the past 312 days I have written every morning or evening. The words flow. Cathartic in their way. An outpouring of my soul. The anguish of my heart worked through. But today the words don't come. It has been a hard few days. The missing great. The coming to the close of another year. Reliving each of those events. Longing for the boy we celebrated. Knowing next year we will walk the Senior road again. So many emotions vacillating. Thoughts in a jumble. Heart aching. There are new beginnings. Life is marching ... View Post
Blooming In The Barren Land. . . It Can Be Done
While in captivity in a foreign land the Israelites were asked to sing songs for their captors. To sing songs of joy amidst deep heartache and sadness; while they were mourning their homeland and all they knew. This act unthinkable. Yet, they had been told by God. Plant gardens, build houses and multiply during this time. Jeremiah 29 Even during the hard times. When you feel you can go on no longer. Settle where you are placed. Be doing the work I have for you because I will restore this land. I will bring Israel back; and you need to be ... View Post
Never Forget; Remember
It's been a year. A since the waters rose. Since the rains came and destruction ensued. It's been a year since a sweet young teacher was stranded and sought solace in our home. Where 2 teen age boys lived. And were thrilled to be in her presence. It's been a year since the break of day brought the sights of the force of rushing water. A year since we were hemmed in and ran out of toilet paper. A year since our friends were here for a month, celebrating all that spring recitals, High School graduation and concerts had to offer. A year. The road is repaired. More river spills that year washed ... View Post
Seeing The Wonder
I walk onto the field. It's the first home game. The first time I have walked onto this field since Elijah played. My friend is with me. She who has walked with me and supported me. Surprisingly, a sense of peace washes over me. I was blessed. So blessed by my son. I loved watching his team play. I think back to the day Caleb brought those sticks to the house. I didn't even know what the sport was. The kids loved it. Lacrosse became their game. I smile remembering. I look ... View Post
Celebrating the Farmer
It's his birthday. And I don' think there is anyone more happy than I that he is alive. I pray it stays that way. But cancer, depression and the death of a son make you wonder. We remember the good times today. Only the good. We treasure the fun. And as I remember; There really are only good memories. Sometimes we forget when life is hard. It's important to stop and remember. To live in the memories. I Corinthians 13:4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not ... View Post