Sometimes walking through the archives of our blog is such a good practice. I am reminded of how God knows and is in control of our future. He is working his purpose in and through us no matter our circumstances. A repost from November 30, 2013 I walk out of the bedroom to start my coffee. There are sleeping bags all over the living room. I pick up the pot and plug it in the bathroom so not to disturb anyone. I have a blondie in my bed who had a headache in the middle of the night. I start the laundry and fold a load while I wait for the coffee. My phone is plugged in, in the middle of ... View Post
Despair is but a Step Away Day #19 of Thankfulness
Two years ago; this was our walk. We are still clinging to that same hope two years later. Rejoicing in cancer being at bay. Learning to live with our precious red head residing with the King of Kings. Remembering God is good. . . all the time. Though despair, at times is only a step away. God offers hope that is so much greater. ------------------------------------------------------------- November 19, 2013 To Despair is to Turn Your Back on God Day #19 of Thankfulness To despair is to turn your back on God. ... View Post
Remembering
We stand at the grave. This college friend and I. Last together when life didn't hold so many painful pieces. Back when life was still fresh and young. This day we stand at the grave of my oldest son. "Tell me about Elijah, " she says. My eyes fill with tears. It's been months since I have let myself think of him. Months since I have paused to remember. Because in the remembering the searing ache lies. The sharp pain of who he was and will never be. The kind and caring, yet hot tempered red head. So ... View Post
When You Need to Search For Joy On Father’s Day
How can you miss someone when they are physically still here? How can your heart ache so deeply and long for what once was? The memory thief pulls and tugs until there is but a shell. A shell of the person that once was. The strength; staunch independence now shadowed. How cruel it seems to watch. How twisted the path. We are powerless to stop the movement. Helpless to change. Yet we are not without hope. Hope that one day all this torment will be gone. The day when sweet reunions are fulfilled. When pain ... View Post
Keep Our Wicks Trimmed And Burning
I stood in the field and watched. Lanterns to remember. His classmates gathered together. Remembering. Prayers taking flight. Each lantern rose higher and higher. Lights dotting the already starlit night. I wanted to reach out and somewhere find him in the group. I longed to see him. Missing him deeply. Each lantern aglow, floating heavenward. Beauty. Peace. As I gazed around, I wondered, how many know that soul searching peace? Two men, sons taken before them. Stepping together through the fiercest of times. We ... View Post
How a Community Grieves; A Year Later
Another repost from the archives. These days are still so fresh as we journey forward. We have had many, many visitors this year to the farm. Friends I have not seen in years, bringing hugs and love. All trying to make some sense of this difficult time. It has been a year of grace and trusting through the storms. Our farmhouse doors will remain open. We will walk the journey in this life with bowed knee and eyes lifted to the heavens. Psalm 121:1-4 I lift up my eyes to the hills From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth. He will not ... View Post
