It's the missing that stops me short. The desire to see him. To chat before he falls asleep. I sit on the edge of his bed. I close my eyes. Oh, how can this be? I shake my head and look around the room. What do I do now? Pack up all his things? Relegate his life to a box? My weary heart is not ready for this. Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. I pick up the pile ... View Post
The Juxtaposition of Life And Death, Welcome Lilah Rose
New life. It has been six years since we wrote this post. This beautiful Farmette is now turning six and in Kindergarten. She is a joy and a reminder of beauty from the ashes. She is hope and sunshine. She is the future and grace all wrapped together. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- October 24, 2013 It is the middle of the day. I am at the grocery store doing a full shopping for the first time. My phone rings. It is Adam, our son in law. It is 12:43 p.m. I feel warm and peaceful inside. The first time in almost 3 ... View Post
He is There And I Am Not
Sometimes the echo of the quiet is so overwhelming How does your soul reconcile that your child is gone? Church is always so hard. Today we sang this song. I don't know when I will be able to worship without tears streaming down my face. We will dance on the streets that are Golden. . . My son is dancing. . .on streets that are Golden. He is there. And I am not. This is hard and not right. I am learning to live moment by moment. More than that; is too much. I have grace for the moment; that is all. As I sing these words today, someone rubs my ... View Post
As Reality Sets In
As the fog lifts and my new reality sets in. I am confident only in knowing that my comfort is in the LORD. I lack confidence in every other area. I can not trust any emotion. I made a trip to the Orthodontist with Ana. I am reminded Elijah only had his braces off for a little over a month. I head to Walmart. First time in 2 months. I don't like going there under normal circumstances. There is nothing normal about me anymore. I come undone as my youngest asks for Ramen Noodles. Is there no easy way? We head to cello lessons and the memories flood my mind as tears pour down my ... View Post
Why Does God let Bad Things Happen
It seems so unreal. Each morning I wake through a fog. Hoping it isn't so. Hoping the circumstances have changed and the journey is different. But it is not. Commencement an act, instance, or time of commencing. A Beginning. This was the beginning of a new journey for Elijah. He and his classmates have dreams. They are a dedicated and wonderful group. Musical, smart, ambitious, eloquent speakers. They are the future; the next generation. But God allowed the unthinkable, the unimaginable to happen. Now we are a part of a new ... View Post
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