Hold me closeLet Your love surround meBring me nearDraw me to Your sideAnd as I waitI'll rise up like the eagleAnd I will soar with YouYour Spirit leads me onBy the power of Your love Words. Ancient. New. Timely. Perfect. Words that penetrate the heart. Reaching deep into the aching hole. We can be refreshed and filled; even when we're hurting. I never knew I could know such peace. I never knew the intimacy I would feel with Christ when so much had been torn from me. I let the words wash over me as we ... View Post
Listening Day #10 of Thankfulness
She contacts me on face book. She found a recording of his voice from a history project. She laughed and cried when she heard it. She wondered if I would like her to send it to me. I breathe deep. Another recording of his voice. Another piece. Yes. Yes, I would love another opportunity to hear his voice. To listen to my sweet, sweet son. I play the recording. The deep places of my mommy's heart ache. Oh how I miss him. He was so articulate. Always. His first word ex-ca-va- ... View Post
The Least of These My Brethren
He sits at my table. I feed him. Physical nourishment. We feed him the Word. He; the downcast. Broken. Struggling with mental illness. Trying to find his way in this world. He sits at my table. I fight the thoughts that permeate my mind. My son. Buried deep beneath the earth. Not at my table; while this one lives. Why? My son; a hard worker. So young. A lover of God. Gone. And here. At my table the least of these. Matthew 25:40 "The King will reply, 'Truly I tell ... View Post
His Ways. . .Not Mine
Many came to help ready the farm for guests. There are so many details. My head spins. The weather could be an issue. I want it to be sunny. I don't want to have tents. I want to sit out in the open. But that is not the case. It may rain; It may not. How do you decide? So much of our walk in life is about letting go. Changing our expectations. If we just trust God. Isaiah 55:9 As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. Put aside our desires and ... View Post
Swaying With The Changes
The kids will head to camp today. I can't get the teenagers up to help get chores finished. But today they are up shortly after me. Excitement. Camp. Memories. Time with fellow believers. Growing closer to God. Being refreshed and renewed. Reminders of hope; of life everlasting. I will make the drive to New York without my farmer. Life goes that way some times. There was a breakdown yesterday. So plans, for today, are changed. I don't do so well with change anymore. I can feel myself being ... View Post
When The Dark Is Illuminated
They've taken the floor off the porch. Bare. Exposed beams and 26 years of darkness. Rags, pans, leaves all brought to light. Accumulated through the years. Like our sins. Hidden where no one can see. Private. Yet choking. Holding you in bondage. While you wallow in the dark. It isn't until the exposure that the cleaning; the healing, can begin. The light transcends the darkness . It shatters what was. There is relief when the dark is illuminated. Hiding takes work. Much to conceal. In the revealing ... View Post
