The video plays. The tears come. The ache deep within. Oh how I miss him. I listen to the drums. His style soft and enjoyable. The song plays. Behold He Comes. He would come. He would take my first born. And He would come again and take my second born. In the early hours of the morning. He would come. My farmer and I talk. Sometimes we feel like we're just living, waiting for Christ to return. We're so done with being here. . . on this earth. The pain excruciating. Everything feeling out of whack. Is this how all ... View Post
When Words Fail
For the first time in months. The words don't come. For the past 312 days I have written every morning or evening. The words flow. Cathartic in their way. An outpouring of my soul. The anguish of my heart worked through. But today the words don't come. It has been a hard few days. The missing great. The coming to the close of another year. Reliving each of those events. Longing for the boy we celebrated. Knowing next year we will walk the Senior road again. So many emotions vacillating. Thoughts in a jumble. Heart aching. There are new beginnings. Life is marching ... View Post
10 Months Of A Road I Never Thought I Could Walk
The days move along. Time has no respect for the heart. Maybe it was designed that way. The beat steady. Unwavering. 10 months of a cadence that is unfamiliar. A longing each day for what can not be. Reaching deep for strength. The earth a glow with spring color. Matchless in it's wonder. A palette stretched with colors unimaginable. The magnitude of loss so great; it mars the beauty. So I work. I step to see. Breathe. Listen. 10 months. I remember when you were 10 ... View Post
Never Forget; Remember
It's been a year. A since the waters rose. Since the rains came and destruction ensued. It's been a year since a sweet young teacher was stranded and sought solace in our home. Where 2 teen age boys lived. And were thrilled to be in her presence. It's been a year since the break of day brought the sights of the force of rushing water. A year since we were hemmed in and ran out of toilet paper. A year since our friends were here for a month, celebrating all that spring recitals, High School graduation and concerts had to offer. A year. The road is repaired. More river spills that year washed ... View Post
Changing The Desires Of My Heart
I wash dishes. Over the sink is the verse; Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. I have glanced at these words now for weeks. Each and every day. I read them. I let the words sink in. Words of truth. The Ancient Word. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. I cry out to God to hold me. To give me strength. Sometimes I feel like I am going through the motions. Blindly stepping on the ... View Post
He Made Me A Mom
He made me a mom. I was so sick when he took his first breath. In and out of consciousness. My memories formed from pictures. When he took his last breath I wasn't there either. He slipped into his heavenly home while I slumbered in mine. And this Mother's Day he won't be here. I am also a motherless daughter. Both my mom and my sweet mother in law in their eternal home. So where in the world does that leave me for Mother's Day? My first instinct is to run. All that is within me pushes against the coming of the Day. My heart ... View Post
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