The wind blows. It stirs me awake. I want to snuggle down and stay in bed. Some days I don't want to get up. This is one. I sigh under the weight of remembering. I fling my thoughts heavenward. I get coffee. This life is hard. The darkness hovers now; earlier. My favorite time of year. I want to see beauty yet marred by deep sadness. Plans are hard to make. So much clutters my mind. Time marching forward. Moving further and further from the accident. Further from my son. Yet ... View Post
Learning How To Go With The Flow
I fear complacency. I fear a haughty heart in the face of a holy God. Obedience calls. But to what? The way is so unclear. The future looming. The days unknown. Weariness creeps in slowly. A heart pressed in on all sides. Reaching through to the joy. Yet, veiled by grief. Where do we go from here? What is the calling? The immediate rushes. I long for relief. I breathe slowly. Time to slow the pace. There is no way to the other side, but through, this journey. Psalm 23:4 Yea, though I ... View Post
His Ways. . .Not Mine
Many came to help ready the farm for guests. There are so many details. My head spins. The weather could be an issue. I want it to be sunny. I don't want to have tents. I want to sit out in the open. But that is not the case. It may rain; It may not. How do you decide? So much of our walk in life is about letting go. Changing our expectations. If we just trust God. Isaiah 55:9 As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. Put aside our desires and ... View Post
We’re Wrapping All That Hurt And Sadness In Love
My brother in law gets a jump on the day. A Fundraiser. A BBQ. There is food to cook, tents to place and list a mile long. We're hoping for sunshine. The doors to this farm will be flung open once again. This time we'll breathe deep. We'll gather together to honor Elijah's memory. We will remember. Deuteronomy 6:13-19 Fear the Lord your God, serve him only and take your oaths in his name. Do not follow other gods, the gods of the peoples around you; for the Lord your ... View Post
Even In The Searing Pain; We are Not Abandoned
I want to avoid his room. I haven't been in for a while. Sometimes the weight of the pain is crushing. I bring laundry up the stairs and turn away quickly. I pick up and work for a while. When it's time to go downstairs. I avoid looking. It's been a year. . . and a week. How can I do this long term? How can I survive this piercing pain? Some days it is so hard to function. I am distracted. Unsettled. Sad. Each moment needing to change my focus and reach for more. Seeking the beauty in the ... View Post
How to Unsettle The Unsettling
I didn't get the coffee ready before I went to bed. I had a hard time falling asleep. I was waiting for Clarissa to come home. And then I was restless. I woke to rain; and to a range of negative emotions. Searing loss. A laundry list of tasks to complete. Unsettled. The mundane. Yet isn't it only mundane if I choose? The darkness descends. The enemy is subtle in his ways. He seeks to discourage and confuse. To remind us of our weaknesses. Our tasks are offerings. Gifts. When the mundane creeps in we need to ... View Post
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