What are you waiting for? The question seems to hover. Ideas and thoughts run through my head. Yet, somehow, I am paralyzed to move forward. Excuses. Walls. Fear. And I wonder, What am I waiting for? I have learned how fragile life is. I know deep loss and unbearable ache. I know time is short. But how do you make the best of it? Do you search for the unknown and take all kinds of risks? Or do you slowly, safely make your way through? What are you waiting for? The question haunts me. Am I motivated by fear or faith? I have never been a risk taker and I don't like to ... View Post
Warm Weather, Rain and A Roof; A Miracle
They move like a well oiled machine. You can hear their bantering. A sing song like chatter. Moving. Quickly. A miracle. The rain pours down. They work; unphased. It has been a little over 2 and half months since our barns blew down in a windstorm. These months have been harsh weather wise. Snow, wind, sleet and freezing temperatures have impeded progress on rebuilding. Builders in our area have been swamped. Help - just not available. Yet we persevered with the help we had and pole by pole began the rebuilding process. Our coffee buddy, busy with his own farm and ... View Post
No Stove, No Washer, No Problem
During the early part of the summer my stove stopped working. No stove. That's right. I woke up in the morning and my stove ceased working. I had paid extra for some frozen Mirabelle's croissants. We were going to indulge in the yummy treat! (You should try them! Soooo good) I opened the oven to check on the progress and I was horrified! I checked the temperature of the stove, I doubled checked. I could tell just from opening the oven door that something was amiss. Little did I know. I though this was judgement for the splurge on Mirabelle's croissants. I really didn't need ... View Post
I Don’t Want To Miss A Thing
I spot them out of the corner of my eye. They were not there yesterday. The miracle of the warmth and sunshine. In just a moment; things changed. Do we breathe in deep enough to handle those things that change so quickly? Are we rooted deep enough to hold on? In a flash we are knocked off balance. With a word, our whole life changes. Do we live so that when the storms come we have much in reserve? Enough to press through each day? The time to cherish the unimportant. Wind through the trees. A shadow across the field. Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the ... View Post
Waiting; The Farming Way
It's raining. Again. We really could use a little precipitation. The grass will green up quickly. We are running short on feed. With the new calculations it looks like we have 10 days of feed left. 10 days left of the harvest that held our son. His hand in the work. The final pieces of summers bounty, ending. Another piece to the puzzle. Another added expense. I watch my farmer husband as he shares the news. We need feed. He doesn't react. Years of volatility in this business have hardened him to ... View Post
Waiting Can Turn Me Into The Road Rage Queen
I wait in the parking lot for my youngest son; now my only, to finish practice. It seems like yesterday I was waiting for Elijah. There is struggle in waiting. I do not wait well. I am easily irritated. There is something else I could be doing. Work that needs to be done. Space; I need to fill. Silence; (ask the farmer) I need to fill. There is purpose in waiting. Each a season. Waiting; with child, for birth. Hope. New life. Waiting; in line, traffic, on the phone. While waiting, I can turn into the road rage queen in the middle of ... View Post
