Some days I just want to play all day. I want someone to feed me and take care of my basic needs. A little like the piggy, wiggies. When the sun shines, I will soak up the warmth with not a care in the world. When I am scared, I can crawl into a pig pile. I can feel the safety and security of those closest to me. Alas, I am not a pig. Though I dare say I live like one sometimes. My room is such a mess. But, I am not a pig. I do have responsibilities and burdens to carry; no matter how ... View Post
His Ways. . .Not Mine
Many came to help ready the farm for guests. There are so many details. My head spins. The weather could be an issue. I want it to be sunny. I don't want to have tents. I want to sit out in the open. But that is not the case. It may rain; It may not. How do you decide? So much of our walk in life is about letting go. Changing our expectations. If we just trust God. Isaiah 55:9 As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. Put aside our desires and ... View Post
The Wonderful Cross
It's more than I deserve. 2 different places. 3 different testimonies. All affected by 1 life. A life that wasn't perfect. But pointed to the One that is. I listen to Senior testimonies. New beginning's in the horizon. A life hurt by the loss of his friend. July 28, 2013 etched in his young mind for ever. Questions raised throughout the year. Hearts hurting. But the power of the holy spirit was working in his heart. And God's love broke through the barriers and the hurt and reminded that pilgrim along ... View Post
Stepping Right Out Of Fear
The rains come. The earth eager for nourishment. The sound triggers memories. All senses alert. These are the pre-death days. Each moment so vivid. Such technicolor. Each night I fight against the jagged thoughts. The waking from sleep. The flashlights playing on my window. The knocking on the door. The deep dark. Knowing something is not right. The air conditioner. Off. No lights. It all threatens to tear at me. Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be ... View Post
Keep On, Keeping On
The words on the pole begin to fade. The area around the site; bare. The remnant of something. Unknown to passers by. A cross. 3 flags. A memorial, one thinks. Each drive along that route, I cry out to the Father. I ask for mercy in this process. I beg for the pain to be softened. I long to know why. Yet I don't remain there. There is still purpose and work left to do here. The tension of how to move on and remember, pull. A desire to hide from all that is moving on; strong. Effort made each day to surrender my ... View Post
What Kind Of A Legacy Will You Leave?
Someone took his flag. I know it doesn't really matter. But it was the only thing marking his grave. Someone placed it there. And I have loved it. I feel violated. I want to scream, my son has already been taken from me! Now the flag too? I am sure someone probably saw the flag and thought it was randomly placed where it was. It wasn't a malicious act. They had no idea there was a grave. I know this; but this is such a great reminder. The legacy Elijah left is so much more than the space in the graveyard. We are ... View Post
