Fear just up and left. I am not kidding. I have felt it living in my bones. Crippling me at times. Needing to grasp and hold on tightly. The moment one of the kids gets into the car. When they are gone for long periods of time. When they want to go to a friends. The constant need for a call; to be in touch. To hear their voice. Secretly wanting them all in the house. In their rooms. Going no where. It has paralyzed me. And I didn't even know it. Looking back, it began the ... View Post
Jesus Came to Change Our Lives. Not Our Circumstances.
Last year. My farmer and College girl where in Haiti on this day. Now they've been again. Here is a re-post of thoughts on Water. One of our most important resources. Do You Have A Decent Source of Water? John 4:14 but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life." Water An integral part of our life. Without it; we can not survive. Yet there are nations that struggle. Clean drinking ... View Post
The Journey Home
Tonight. They return. They've been gone a week. Half my family. Serving. Working. Sweating. Giving. Loving. In the Name of Jesus. To a people in need. I have missed them. Their journey home, begun. While they will long to be home; a piece of them will always remain in Haiti. I have not shared their experience. I am praying for understanding and wisdom. To hear their words. To see into their souls. I am looking forward to the ... View Post
Babies, Snuggles, Diapers. . . Oh My! Day #4 of Thankfulness
I start the day with coffee and a scone with a friend. She insists on treating me to my favorite latte. It's so nice to be out and visiting. I return home to a note from a sweet mama that she is in the area. She and her new baby and would love to stop by. Snuggles and visiting. A perfect combination. Later after a silly fb conversation I receive another note from a mama of three under three. She and another seasoned mama come for shortbread and coffee. The day has flown by. And there is contentment in my heart. There ... View Post
Until Then. . .
The world has stopped once again. The memory of the deep searing ache prevalent. And now my farmer's sister knows that ache. Another cousin now resides in Glory. The boy who used my tapered candles as num chucks as he danced from one end of the couch to the other while watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Perpetual Motion. Eyes sparkling with boundless energy. Curiosity oozing from every pore. Mischief; the ring leader of the pack of cousins. The first one to laugh. The first one to cry. The first ... View Post
Happy Birthday From Your Little Girl
He holds my hand. The hand that is still strong. Yet works no more. I look at him. This man that gave me life. This man that has been my confidant, advocate, role model and father. I gaze into his eyes. He's still so handsome. He smiles and kisses me. He's happy. Content. He knows no pain or ache. I say, "Let's walk for a bit." He shuffles. Reminders for him to pick up his feet. I bristle. This once fiercely independent, stubborn man. . . shuffles. I choke back the sobs that ... View Post
