Another year has passed. It would have been my parents 48th Anniversary. I call my dad. I don't say anything about the day. I just want to hear his voice. The voice that once steadied me now needs my assurance. He misses me and wonders when I can come visit. I wonder too. It seems the edge I once had has diminished. The trip MA done in a day or several times a month. The thought, now, fills me with dread. My thoughts drift back to last year and since this is a month of remembering. I am re-posting last years thoughts. I am still writing reports. Still working on book work. The beat ... View Post
Show Me How What I Wanted Isn’t Best For Me
It was Early Sunday Morning his Spirit left his earthly body. In the wee hours. While the night was still dark. While I slept. My boy left this earth. The shock of those days have lessened. They still fill me with a sickening feeling when I think of them. There is much I still do not know about that time. I can't. It was Sunday morning when the heaven's declared God's majesty. Oh how our hearts ache. We long for this to be a bad dream. I want something I can never have. Each morning I wrestle with the knowledge that Elijah will never ... View Post
Do You Know What You Are Reaching For?
The geese are making noise. A few trees have begun their colorful transformation. The nights have cooled and we found ourselves wrapped in blankets yesterday. A reminder that winter is fast approaching. Another fall. Another without my son. Our family still reels at the thought of life without Elijah. Every fiber of our being longs for his presence. Yet we press on. We step forward. We are seeking and reaching for the path God wants us to take. Each day I strive to live fully. The unknowns rise before me; the tempest at ... View Post
Re-posting This Day Last Year. . . Sometimes Looking Back Helps With The Steps Forward
This is a re-post from last year on this day. Sending prayers of gratitude for the hands that have held us and continue to shower us with grace. Being a Giver. . .it is Hard to Receive The rhythm of the routine continues. There is hay down and baling to be done. Cows are up in milk and the management needs care and detail. It's the detail that makes the difference. It's what makes you stand out. Caring about the tiniest details brings you closer to your goal. Details may mean success or ruin for us. Those details seem hard. But they are ingrained in ... View Post
It’s Just A Couch
It's just a couch. Stained with memories. Babies. Toddlers. Knowledge imparted through endless books. Resting, while heavy with child. It's just a couch. Love poured out. Knees bowed in prayer over young ones; pleading over their souls. Years and years of devotions while the farm house slept. Late night discussions debating all that life may present. It's just a couch. Where 7 or 8 gathered for family night to watch a movie. It was never too small. There was always room for ... View Post
And. . . He’s Off
He's heading off to college this morning. Elijah's friend. Ditching Marines for the Army. On an ROTC scholarship. So stinking proud of him. There is a dance of fine emotion in my being. A reminder of how much I miss my son. Yet, a glimpse into the goodness of God. I will pray for this young man and wait with great expectation to see where God will lead him. I will miss his "stop ins." Though they have become less frequent. I will continue to pray for the young people heading back to school. They have been ... View Post
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