In the morning when I rise. . . Fear knocks on the door to my heart. It's face menacing and unwanted. His love is greater than my fear. His love covers over the pain. His love is enough. Instead of suffering. I sometimes feel like I am suffocating. The life and breath being taken. Each place I turn uncertainty and concern. The way unclear. The very earth being pulled from under me. Until all I have left; Is Christ. That's it. Give me Jesus That's what He wants. His love is greater than all my fears. I John 4:18 There ... View Post
When I Don’t Measure Up. . . I Need To Remember What I Wrote Earlier In The Week
I fall short. I don't measure up. I head down a road of self destruction. It is so easy to do. The dishes aren't done. The floors need to be mopped. The phone rings and there are bills to pay. The laundry is backed up again. . .the kids need help. (I didn't say they were helping. . .they need help) The house is so cluttered. One of the hydraulic hoses on the case blew. There's a flat tire on the Swinger. The Valtra is at the shop. My farmer worries me. I miss my son. My heart hurts. I am worn. It all clambers for my attention. Every ... View Post
It Is What Is Unseen, That Makes You Stronger
It is still dark. The rhythm of the day beginning. The sound of the washer and dryer. The beat of the pressing. Dishes, book work, school. Chores. Cold. The milk pump has been running for hours. Soon to have completed it's cycle. The feeding begun. Calves fed. My farmer begins the last full week of radiation. The routine to change; again. This is a change we will embrace. One we will anticipate. But yet, there is still the waiting. The waiting for the toxic cocktails and radiation to complete their work. Long after the ... View Post
Pressing On Through; God Will Make A Way
Before I had even finished writing my last post, I received word that Cheslea's Grandmother had died on New Year's Eve. She was at a party. Just fine. And had a heart attack; Just like that. In a year when we have experienced so much heart ache. This feels like too much. What do you do when you feel like at every corner you're knocked down? When life is relentless in it's burden. How do you live when all is heavy and weighted down? There is no option for surrender. The only option is to press on. Press on towards that goal. Take a moment to ... View Post
God Works In Moments
The house echos without her presence. There is something so desperately missing. The kids say it on the way in. "I miss Nana greeting us at the door, Abbey too." This log cabin; this was her pride and joy. Oh, how she loved her home. She cared for it with a tenderness and love like no one else. She so appreciated everything about this place. She loved being in the country; she loved to sit on her front porch. It's funny to think how different we are. She loved to work and work to make the house so clean and perfect. And then she would sit and read in her chair and enjoy. I ... View Post
Is Your Heart in a Delicate Balance Today?
It is a delicate balance for my weary heart. To embrace the joy that comes with new life. .. yet still longing for the one called home too soon. . . Oh be still my aching heart. Quiet the desire to see my son. Help me turn to praise; hold at bay the yearning. Turn it all to Jesus. Take from me the hurt. I surrender it all. God your presence is all I need. Be still the desire to hear the drums. . . Be still. Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the ... View Post
