Two and a half years. The beautiful words of remembrance, faded away. Time passing. Life moving forward. Memories; a gift. The Lord's sweet provision. A gift to be treasured. A legacy of photo's. God made sure there were pieces to hold on to. A heart full of memories. I still don't like this plan. My whole being longs for a different path. But that is not to be. So, with my whole heart I will praise the One who calls me by ... View Post
My Name is Tammy and I Make my Bed Everyday
I haven't showered. Laundry is piled on the floor. Book work stacked on the table and in piles. It's tax time you know. And the beat of that clock is ticking. I can feel it. I make my bed. Yes. In the middle of all the chaos. There is one thing. Constant. I make my bed. What does that say about me? I am sure psycho therapists would have a field day. Of all the things that need to get done. I make my bed. Every day. With out fail. I wash my sheets too. Almost ... View Post
I Ponder These Things
13 years ago I sat in the wee hours of the morning. Bathed in the twinkling Christmas lights. Hope wrapped inside; heavy with child. Nights uncomfortable. Seeking solace in the quiet. Pondering. So different from my walk today. A Christmas child. Due at any moment. What did Mary feel as she carried the Hope of all Nations? What was it like that night when all hung in balance as the Incarnate became Flesh? Isaiah 9:6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the ... View Post
When the Missing is Deep
Hi Elijah. I miss you so much. They are coming out with a new Star Wars movie. The products are all over the place. It's been so fun to look - at all the stuff. To remember when I was a kid. But then. . . I got to the Lego aisle. And I still can't stop the racking sobs. They threaten to undo me. Our last Christmas together you got a Star Wars Lego kit. You were a Senior in High School. Enlisted in the United States Marine Corps. Yet the one item you pulled yourself away from the family for was, a lego ... View Post
The Gift of Rest Day #8 of Thankfulness
It's Sunday. A day of rest. Meant as a gift. Not a punishment. Time to reflect. Remember what has been done. Step back and renew. A break in the ordinary. Today is also a day our church votes on a new pastor. A time of change. A new beginning. Exciting time to see where God will lead. ~30 Days of Thankfulness~ I am thankful for: Dinner out with my family memories of other dinners when Elijah was still here saying Elijah's name over and over a day of rest being involved in the life of the ... View Post
I Said, “Yes” To Writing On The Walls
I said it sort of jokingly. I didn't think anything of it. We could write our gratitude on the wall. We are going to paint in here someday. (It hasn't been painted since 1989. . ."ain't nobody got time for that") The walls are filthy and stained with hand prints. Drawings from the kids and those infamous height marks. A legacy of Elijah on the wall. A tangible record of his exsistance here. A reminder. So, we clean up from physical nourishment and the Ancient Word. My farmer hesitates before he leaves. It is not until ... View Post
