We stopped at the Diner on the way home. I just love that place. 2 different strangers, now friends, sent gift certificates so we could go. It seems to be a good place after the hospital. The booths bring comfort. The coffee; hot and delicious. The food; just perfect. We talk. We make plans. It's the we that is so exciting. Recently I have done most of the talking. (Ok, so, I usually do most of the talking) But this time he shared too. It was wonderful. We talked about plans for the Spring. A plan. Things that ... View Post
Will I Ever Be Whole Again?
I just want off this road. I don't want to live without our son. We invest so much in our kids. We thrill at their successes and mourn at their losses. Our days are ordered around their life as we watch them become all they can be. Our family is a unit. Each with it's unique function; making us whole. Our dream is for them to be all they can be in Christ. We long for them to make this world a better place. To bring change to this hurting world. To be Jesus to the lost. To share hope. And when that dream is dashed; torn from you. We don't feel whole any more. There is ... View Post
Hush; Be Still
Hush Be still Wait And see New life Springs from the old There is hope there is joy It waits Hush Be still Wait And see The Lord He is able He is mighty Hush Be still I am not quiet. I walk heavy. My husband reminds me; often. He though scares me out of my skin; Repeatedly. Quiet, not my companion. I am reminded throughout the day to hush and be still. The day is chaotic. Visitors amidst my planned cleaning event. Interrupted in the sweetest of ways. A reminder that my Agenda is not the Lords. No matter how I try to plan. He will ... View Post
The Question I Don’t Want To Answer
I know the question is coming. It always does. It is how we converse. But it is the question I don't know how to answer. One I don't want to answer. I meet a new friend. Our daughters standing next to each other in the concert. While we sit next to each other. Since we have been homeschooling, there are a fair amount of students and families we do not know anymore. How many children do you have? I pause. I don't know how to answer this question. Sometimes I just say 6; the oldest is married and we just had a grand baby. And the conversation moves on; because babies are cute and ... View Post
To Despair is to Turn Your Back on God. . . Day #9 of Thankfulness
To despair is to turn your back on God. -Marilla Cuthbert Anne of Green Gables If I despair. Not only do I turn my back on God but I take away the hope that he has promised. Will I only take the good in this life and not the bad? Though it seems like the bad has tipped the scales. But has it? Who am I to decide what is enough? John 16:33 I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have ... View Post
Great is Thy Faithfulness, Even when Trusting is Hard
Great is Thy Faithfulness. Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” We are to be still. Even when our hearts are breaking. Even when Saturday nights leave me undone. Re-living each moment. Not wanting the other kids to be out. I am stepping into fear. And forgetting to trust. 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. He knows us. He created us. I ... View Post
