The dark of the day rises to meet me. The warmth of the previous days a tease. My son, my son, my soul cries out. I pass the accident site. Today. I slip. The images flash before me. Images I never saw. Images that played out while I slept. My darling red head. My first born son. Passed from this life while I slept. Oh, how I miss him. The deep, piercing ache creeps through my veins today. The wait for next tests for my farmer. I cling to the Ancient promises. The truth. This ... View Post
Reaching for More
2016. It's here. With marching orders. Time. Progressing. At an ever increasing speed. Yet constant. Away from all that I know. Further. Towards the unknown. Time. I am glad 2015 is over. 2 dear friends; gone to be with Jesus. A nephew. A father of 4 and a former colleague. Sometimes I can't face the loss. It seems that it comes so quickly. The weight. You feel. For others. But 2015 also held graduation for our now college girl. Visits from ... View Post
Lifting My Eyes Heavenward
He creeps in and tries to tell me lies. Lies that I am sad. That I will always be sad. Lies that bring me down. That enemy that would love to see us in despair. My heart sinks deeper and deeper. My energy sapped. It is in the middle of shredding carrots into the salad that I am struck. Struck by the awareness of the heaviness of grief. Another that I love dearly, is finishing her race here on this earth. The one that shares a birthday with my mom. A middle name spelled the same. A love of music and books. And ... View Post
How to Unsettle The Unsettling
I didn't get the coffee ready before I went to bed. I had a hard time falling asleep. I was waiting for Clarissa to come home. And then I was restless. I woke to rain; and to a range of negative emotions. Searing loss. A laundry list of tasks to complete. Unsettled. The mundane. Yet isn't it only mundane if I choose? The darkness descends. The enemy is subtle in his ways. He seeks to discourage and confuse. To remind us of our weaknesses. Our tasks are offerings. Gifts. When the mundane creeps in we need to ... View Post
