I am learning that life is not about what we want or desire. That at every turn our spirit needs to be yielded to the Almighty. Life can be unpredictable. Our response to the events placed in our path can make or break us. We can plan and prepare. We live. When our hearts are nurtured; surrendered to a life with God; life can still be harsh. Graduation was looming. Party preparations under way. Months of planning. Days of preparing. Such fun. New beginnings. Graduation day dawned ... View Post
No Amount Of Scrubbing Will Change What Has Happened Day #12 of Thankfulness
The sun shone through the windows casting rainbows everywhere. Two little girls that were visiting, valiantly tried to catch them. Such a beautiful day. That sun, streaming through the windows though, showed the dirt and grime. A reminder of all I have neglected through months of cancer and grief. I stifled the self pity and pulled out the paper towels. I washed with a vengeance. I wiped away dirt and spider webs. No matter how hard I try. I can not wipe away my circumstances. They are here to stay. Embracing the journey is the only ... View Post
Enter In
Enter in. Enter into His gates with Thanksgiving in your heart. Enter in. In. "used to indicate location or position within something" A location. Enter in. The door is open. You need to walk through. Not when you're happy. Not when things are going swell. That's not what it says. Enter in. Just as you are. When you're hurting. When life is overwhelming. When your weary soul aches with breathing in and out. Enter in. My heart hurts. The burning sensation ... View Post
Can You Stop And Turn? Do You Have What It Takes?
It's the 28th. Sunday. 14 months. Months, days, weeks, moments of missing. Days of seeking who God is; who am I in Him. I wake again today to the fight to get up. My soul is heavy. I cry out to Jesus. I just want to burrow in. Sleep some more. My heart; Needs to change There was a double sleep over last night. Church to attend, a rehearsal for a performance. And it leaves me with tears pooling and a heart constricting. There is no milk. The keys to the van are missing. The other car ... View Post
A Letter To God
So much of my daily journey takes me back to last year. How I felt. So much I do not remember. So much is still stuck vividly in my mind. This post echoes the cry of my heart. This week I have felt weary and worn. But we are holding on. Clinging to the rock that is higher than I. Dear God, I find myself in a deep place today. My first thoughts are usually to bring praise and Glory to your name. It is the habit established for more than 20 years now. My first thoughts when my eyes flutter open are to praise you. . .no matter how I feel. Today. . .I opened my eyes and ... View Post
The Importance Of Naming; remembering 9/11
She's been playing the cello for 3 years. She practices willingly. . . sometimes. This summer she didn't want to play. She said she was done with the cello. But she has music in her soul. She fought the entire process. I knew in my mommy's heart she will long to play someday. So we begin the fall lessons. She doesn't want to go. She is angry. We talk through trusting me on this one. That sometimes mommy's know things. She agree's to trust. This little 9 year old. Stepping in faith. A ... View Post
