I’ve begun the process of letting go.
The hard work of looking at things and letting them go.
You see for years I’ve held on to everything.
Afraid to let it go.
I might need it.
It might trigger a good memory.
It’s. all. I. have.
In quick succession I lost my past and my future.
While I was reconciling my past (my mom).
God called part of the future home (son).
And I got stuck in that place.
He almost allowed the present (my farmer) to be gone too.
And in the grief walk process I held on to things,
clinging to what has been and that which will never be.
The “stuff” is suffocating me.
We move piles; from one place to another.
I’ll get to it later.
Suffocating, robbing me of time and thankfulness.
I’m praying and asking God these days to help me look at things with his eyes.
What is a memory and what is a burden.
It’s like that with all things.
What are the things that weigh us down?
What are the things that lighten our load?
It’s not only the stuff.
The farm kids are growing.
They’re flying the nest.
Another process of letting go.
It’s a hard transition for this mama.
So much of their childhood feels like it was interrupted.
As I walk this journey in life, I want to finish well.
I long for a life lived in hope and grace.
Part of that starts with letting go.
What are you thankful for?
How are you doing on this thankful journey?
30 Days of Thankfulness
I am thankful for:
the morning sunrise
hot coffee in my mug
warm November days
sunshine streaming through the windows
Playing music on my google (thank you Todd!)
Any kind of music! It’s so awesome
the hard with my kids, that helps me grow
the freedom of letting go
A friend that helped to teach me about letting go and the freedom it will bring
quiet times to read
The Ancient Word
beginning to decorate for Christmas!