Pushing through the dark. Looking for the light. Holding tight the truth. Letting go the fear. Wondering how this new life works. Digging deep for strength. Resting in the One. Reaching for Hope. This journey continues to stretch me to the fullest. Each day, I seek to rest not in the what if's, but in the what I knows. When all is shaking around me, there is a calm. An assurance so sweet. The snow piles high and the drifts impassable. The wind howls. But yet the farmer presses on. The cows are milked. The rhythm of the day continues. It is that rhythm ... View Post
A Promise That Will Never Be Broken
She meets me at the door, as I enter church. I haven't seen her in so long. She hugs me tight and we cry. She so young, with babies growing. Together we share the silent pain of miscarriages, me but one. . .she many. But this new pain; I carve a new path. What do you say? How can you express in words the fear every parent lives with; the one no one wants to endure. She hugs me tight as we cry. The service is beautiful. The first Sunday in Advent, the reminder of the Promise. A service of dedication; a young mom and dad dedicating their 2 boys before the ... View Post
It’s a Big, Deep Breath Kind Of A Day. . . Day #28 of Thankfulness
It's a big deep breath kind of a day. It's been 4 months. 4 months since we were woken from our sleep with the news that our boy was in the presence of the King of Kings. 4 months since we placed our red headed, handsome, just graduated boy in the sod of this earth. How thoughts of that night still rock my world. And it's this day, that America celebrates all that we are thankful for. The bounty and provision given in desperate times. Being thankful is a practice I have cultivated throughout the months and years of my life. Seeking wholeheartedly ... View Post
The Day is Dawning, How Will You Live This Day? . . .Day #13 of Thankfulness
The day dawns. White crisp flakes fall to the ground. The blanket of white enveloping the land. Our sins are made as white as snow. Isaiah 1:18 Come now, let us settle the matter, says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. One gave, that we may have eternal life. I keep hearing the voice of the Officer. There's been an accident. Is he ok? silence I'm sorry. It plays over and over in my head. The heart drop feeling. The moment my life changed forever. I can remember saying ... View Post
A few things I have learned about a cold bedroom. . .Day #7 of Thankfulness
I have learned a few things over the years about not heating the bedroom: 1. I don't need a wine cellar. It's the perfect temperature. 2. Oil of Olay does not contain water. 3. Oil of Olay does not freeze. 4. Oil of Olay Moisturizer hurts to put on when it is 52 degrees 5.This is not an add for Oil of Olay 6. Never put your clothes on in the bedroom unless you have warmed them first. 7. Your water always stays nice and cool. 8. It is still not cold enough for spiders to die. 81/2. #8 is really important. 9. Make sure you're fully dressed before you freak out about spiders ... View Post
3 Months of Not My Will, But Thine
It's been 3 months. 3 months of not my will but thine. The seasons have turned. Time . . .has marched on. "We will mark time now with the date. Not a day of the week. Though Saturday evenings into the wee hours of Sunday will forever be etched in my soul." I do not like this journey any better after 3 months. It does not feel comfortable. It is abrasive and unsettling. Isiah 55:8-9 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,”declares the Lord.9 “As the heavens are ... View Post
