Hush. I hear the whisper. Hush. He calms my aching soul. The empty stocking. My nephews children without their dad. My sister in law with out her son. The news of another loss of a dad so loved in this community. I can scarcely breathe this Christmas morning. I hear the whisper as I drive to the barn. Hush my child. The strains of a loved Christmas Carol play, Sing, choirs of angels, sing in exultation;O sing, all ye citizens of heaven above!Glory to God, all glory in the highest; Sing all ye citizens of ... View Post
She Could Do Anything. . . Really.
The waiting. Our hearts. Preparing. Adoring.Longing; For Hope. Eternity. Love came down. Incarnate. Flesh. For me. For you. Once. For All. 14 years ago today a beautiful woman bowed low as she journeyed to meet Jesus. Her presence is missed everyday. The lessons she lived, still in our hearts. Here is a tribute to her from last year. She now resides with 2 of her beautiful grandchildren; whom she loved and adored with all her ... View Post
When Your Heart Is Breaking, Can You Still Sing, “Gloria In Excelsis Deo”?
4 years. 4 roses. 2 of those anniversaries were celebrated with romance and promises; dreams and a future. 2 of them have been celebrated with her bringing the roses; to the cold hard earth. No reciprocation. No warmth. Silence. Heart breaking, heart wrenching quiet. The dreams and hopes never to be. A life, a love; silenced. And we are learning how to live without. We're learning how to step a foot in front of the other without a part of who we are. Our family looks different. The family ... View Post
Reflections On The Day After Day #28 of Thankfulness
It's the day after. The day after 22 people for dinner. The day after we bowed low in Thanksgiving for the deep gift we have been given. After the Turkey and pies and steaming cups of coffee. After giggles and playing in snow. Now, it is the wee hours of quiet; the day after. One daughter off to work. Retail and Black Friday. My farmer; milking, overseeing all that needs to be done. It is also 16 months since our red head walked this earth. 2 Thanksgivings he has rejoiced with the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. 2 ... View Post
I Will Go Day #25 of Thankfulness
There's been a lot brewing here on the farm for a few weeks. I mentioned last week that there was project we wanted to share. This busy place is always full of ideas and creativity. Sometimes those ideas come to fruition and other times they are mulled over through the years. Deep seeded ideas; longings. One of those a yearning, for my farmer, year after year. Suppressed as chores, and children take precedence over thoughts and dreams. Until this year; when one of those children is married and has a child of her own. Another of those ... View Post
Stepping Over Despair Into Gratitude Day #24 of Thankfulness
I shut the light off at the bottom of the stairs. Our travels brought us home late. It is now the wee hours of the morning and there is laundry and book work. There is also hot coffee. But no milk or eggs. The wind is howling and the rain vacillates between hail and soft pattering. Before I shut off the light, I glance at his door. The reminder each day; so hard. I shake my head with the remembering. It is so hard. If I am not careful, the pull of grief will drag me under. The piercing pain and heartache; all ... View Post
