There is such grace in looking back. A year has passed since we were gifted an overnight. A time we all still cherish. Fragile from death and a new cancer diagnosis we withdrew, with the help of those who wrapped us in love. Now a year later, we still walk carefully. Holding unswervingly to the hope in Christ. Grab a cup of coffee and dig deep today. Remember what God has done. He is a God who is faithful to accomplish what He said He would do. Philippians 1:6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in ... View Post
It’s Not Just Resting, It’s Resting In Day #16 of Thankfulness
It is when we feel least like being thankful that real gratitude is found. This week has been a struggle to find the thankful. Each day work. Staying the course. Seeking. Because gratitude takes eyes to see. A veil pulled back. Pushing through the moments. It's not an emotion or a feeling. It is life style. 1 John 2:17 The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever. A way of life. The morning hours are fading. The work of the day stretching out; ... View Post
We Need To Be About The Business Of Turning. Is Your Soul Up To The Challenge? I Dare You. Day # 15 of Thankfulness
Most days I do not want to be thankful for anything. I want to step into the pit that says woe is me and stay there. I want to let the pain over take me. Each day is work. Work to surrender. It is a conscious effort to step toward the holy each day. I wake. I remember. I hand it all over. It is the way of the morning; before my feet touch the ground. (even before coffee-some things need to be done without coffee) All my thoughts, all my desires surrendered. . . an emptying. Even before I get out of bed. Each ... View Post
When The Barrenness Is All Blanketed In White Day #14 of Thankfulness
The transformation overnight All blanketed in white. A wintry landscape. The barrenness and dark covered in a sea of fluffy delight. There is still wood to gather. Lawn furniture to put away. Many things on the list to accomplish. For today; just rest in the work already finished. Work done thousands of years ago. On a cross. For me, for you. A soul washing. The barrenness turned white as snow. A reflection of grace. Deep down peace. I breath deep the crisp air. My eyes feast on the beauty. I drink in the solemness; the hush just before dawn. The ... View Post
Are you Having A Hard Time Expecting Anything Good? Yeah, Me Too Day #13 of Thankfulness
We spend the day at the hospital. Faces familiar now. Routines established. We wait. Somehow, I have become numb to this process. I tried not to think about it. . . at all. I didn't pray. Honestly. I couldn't. I didn't want my hopes to be dashed. Yet. I didn't step into fear either. I am not sure which is better? The cliff of the ache is just out of reach and I don't want to be on the edge anymore. The burn that has been my constant friend has lightened in my heart. So, when test day came, I chose silence. I ... View Post
No Amount Of Scrubbing Will Change What Has Happened Day #12 of Thankfulness
The sun shone through the windows casting rainbows everywhere. Two little girls that were visiting, valiantly tried to catch them. Such a beautiful day. That sun, streaming through the windows though, showed the dirt and grime. A reminder of all I have neglected through months of cancer and grief. I stifled the self pity and pulled out the paper towels. I washed with a vengeance. I wiped away dirt and spider webs. No matter how hard I try. I can not wipe away my circumstances. They are here to stay. Embracing the journey is the only ... View Post
