She says it at the table where we are dining. We have been given an overnight, away from chores, away from breakdowns and dead cows, away from the tyrany of the urgent. I ask if everyone thinks Elijah would have liked this? Cedric says, "Yeah". And that Ella says, yeah; but we wouldn't be here if he was. It stops me short. And I think of all the things we have done. All the ways in which people have been holding us up. If Elijah were here we wouldn't be so desperately exhausted, overwhelmed and on the edge. Our hearts wouldn't feel like ... View Post
A Farming Family. . . Day #16 of Thankfulness
This farm has been in Gary's family since the early 40's. That is more than 70 years of history. I sometimes wonder what it was like back then. What did Papa Cedric say to Grandma Davis when they bought this place? Papa Cedric never lived here. Taken too soon by a brain tumor. Grandma Effie forging a life without her beloved. 2 family members I never met. 2 family members our son rejoices with these days. The family started on the hill. Where there was no electricity or plumbing. She birthed 7 children; a set of twins. (One of which ... View Post
I Want To Finish Well. . .Day #15 of Thankfulness
I stand at his grave. The tears don't come. In some ways it is hard to feel. I just miss him. So much. I bend down and touch the flowers. They were placed on the birthday of the Marines. Left by those that miss him too. Why is it that we want what we can not have? Why does our soul long for things out of reach? We are restless. A people still wandering in the desert; the promised land within reach. Obedience is too difficult. Surrender, foreign to our me centered lives. Philippians 1:21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is ... View Post
How Do You Look For The Grace Given For Just This Day?. . . Day #14 of Thankfulness
We are glad the day is over. A dead cow to start the day. Baler needs to be sent to dealer to have some work done. (Did I mention it is barely a year old. So much for buying new) The shaft on our tractor stopped working, creating feeding, scraping and management issues. And. . . .the the fluid on Gary's incision returned. . . so back to the hospital we went. 3 days in a row. We are tired. We are so worn. Yet, God knows our needs. On the way home we stop at a grocery store we never frequent and run into a friend who wants to help with management of ... View Post
The Day is Dawning, How Will You Live This Day? . . .Day #13 of Thankfulness
The day dawns. White crisp flakes fall to the ground. The blanket of white enveloping the land. Our sins are made as white as snow. Isaiah 1:18 Come now, let us settle the matter, says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. One gave, that we may have eternal life. I keep hearing the voice of the Officer. There's been an accident. Is he ok? silence I'm sorry. It plays over and over in my head. The heart drop feeling. The moment my life changed forever. I can remember saying ... View Post
Letting Go and Letting God. . . Day #12 of Thankfulness
Cancer, radiation, chemo, Elijah, our new baby, the kids. My mind swirls. It hasn't even been a year since my mom walked a similar journey. Our son has been gone for 16 weeks. Now we face another battle. And I am weary. I can't feel. My soul is numb. Yet I can't deny the grace that is poured out. 2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on ... View Post
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