I have been useless. Sick in bed. This does not usually happen. We are mom's, we continue on, no matter how hard. There was no way. I was too weak and shaky to get out of bed. I was consumed with guilt. We have guests. This is my gift. This is what I love. But between the heat, 8 kids, including a 2 year old. I don't have it anymore. Nope. That boundless energy is gone. The desire. Once I could go and go. Making feasts and homemade goodies. Now. It is one step at a time. Now the sweet ... View Post
The Hope For Today Lies In the Surrender
The sun rises in its glory. It will be another beautiful day. Such a gift to farmers. Hope. It is 11 months today. 11 months of not my will but thine. A journey I do not want to travel, but must. This place is uncomfortable and unpredictable. I long to change the path. I will for it all to be different. I want to hear Elijah's voice. I long to have my 17 year old be 18. I wrestle fiercely in my spirit. We are not of this earth. This. This is not our home. We are on a journey to eternal life. This path is lived with bowed knee. In ... View Post
A Broken Pot (Yes Very Cracked) But Not Beyond Repair
The thoughtless words come spewing out. I am angry. My anger is directed at no one in particular. The tender soul of the blue eyed girl receives the brunt. I feel out of sorts. And lashing out is my first reaction. Those words can not be taken back. No matter how deeply I ask for forgiveness. They came out. I Corinthians 13:4-6 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but ... View Post
