I have been useless. Sick in bed.  This does not usually happen.  We are mom's, we continue on, no matter how hard.  There was no way. I was too weak and shaky to get out of bed.  I was consumed with guilt.  We have guests.  This is my gift. This is what I love.  But between the heat, 8 kids, including a 2 year old.  I don't have it anymore.  Nope. That boundless energy is gone.  The desire.  Once I could go and go.  Making feasts and homemade goodies.  Now.  It is one step at a time.  Now the sweet ... View Post