is weighing heavy on my heart.
The missing is overpowering at times.
Deuteronomy 7:9
It is the farming way.
It frustrated the boys.
Farming can be rewarding. . .yet hard.
My farmer can fix almost anything;
make it run, squeeze more life out of it. . .
until it squeezes life out of him, I begin to wonder.
And that is where my mind has gone over the past few days.
I have lost a son.
Will I also lose my best friend and husband?
The chances are. . .at some point I may.
So, I push for a new piece of equipment.
2 actually.
I head to the field to see how this works.
We have a new rake.
God displays his majesty in the richness of his creation.
And my heart just hurts.
I still let the sun poor over me.
I give thanks for what I have.
I give thanks for this day and the hay we were able to get in.
And I know He is healing us.
I know He is right there.
The field is so clean.
3 rows are raked together, cutting time down raking, as well as baling.
Efficiency and improving the bottom line.
Maybe we will survive.
Cedric is excited.
He is all for efficiency and trying new equipment.
Elijah would have loved it.
It is to honor him and bless Cedric that we stepped out of our comfort zone.
(The girls get more excited when we get new bottles for the calves, or actually get the calves out on pasture. Clarissa just sneezes and stays away.)
We cry out for mercy as we wait for results;
as our hearts ache.
Each day we move forward.
We seek strength for the journey, because it is too hard.
Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and courageous.
Do not be afraid or terrified because of them,
for the Lord your God goes with you;
he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Yet we know we are being held.
Revelation 21:4
He will wipe away every tear from their eyes,
and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning,
nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”
My heart hurts for you, dear one. I am so sorry for your trials. I can storm the gates of Heaven with my prayers for you and your family. You can count on that. Love this song. The picture of your Elijah is precious and your compassion for your husband is beautiful.
Weeping lasts for a night, joy comes in the morning. I promise you…your morning will come, you will feel JOY again ♥