They sit in the corner and gather dust. Memories on hold. The beat stuck for all time. I don't know what to do with them. Mostly I stand and stare. While another piece of my heart breaks away. I remember. I try to hear the sounds and feel the rhythms to no avail. They are silenced. It's a new rhythm now. Set in a key and time change I am not comfortable with. There are too many accidentals and I stumble over the melody line. The timbre harsh and abrasive. Some new friends come to visit. Members of the club no one asks for. Further along the ... View Post
Are You Able To Run The Race With Perseverance?
Miss you so much. Don't know if I can handle next year without you. #brother This was Clarissa's face book post on June 20, 2013. It's the picture of them on the first day of school; his Senior year. Elijah had gone on a trip the day after graduation. We all missed him. Boot camp was coming and we knew we weren't prepared. He rarely left home. His presence always here. He wasn't one for sleepovers; preferring his bed to others. Little did we know. Clarissa and Thomas have devotions for Youth Group. The topic; Perseverance. With the Olympics permeating much of our ... View Post
A Pause In The Rush May Change Your Whole Tune
We have friends. Really. We do. They have retired well. Donna and Harold have been faithful friends through the years. First Gary, and then they inherited me. Harold and Gary played music together, while Donna and I forged a friendship. It was Donna and Harold that we asked to be Elijah's God parents. Donna felt uncomfortable and not spiritual enough. I told her she would get that way. Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests ... View Post
Crystal’s Birthday and Living Water
John 4:14 but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life." It's Crystal's birthday. She is 19 today. She sent me a text. She says she doesn't want to turn 19. She is 19 and he is forever 17. . . I breathe in deep. The pain sears my heart. This is hard. This hurts. It is one thing to deal with your own pain; but the effect on your children and their friends. . .and Crystal. . . rocks me. Elijah had a ... View Post
To Bring Honor
I Corinthians 10:31 So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. Today I placed a flag to honor you at your grave. There was evidence that others had been there. Others missing you, remembering, Being at the Harvest Market flooded my heart with memories. The Parade bittersweet. The rhythm of the cadence, the work of your hands. The quad. . .your love. I thought I saw you a few times. It was strange. My heart fluttered. Missing you is so hard. We head to the grave. I feel ... View Post