Clothes flapping in the breeze. Sunshine each day. Gorgeous sunsets. Time together as a family. A farm family that rarely leaves home. And now time to travel. Home. Home to the routines and our chores. Home to the familiar, yet changed. And coming home is so bittersweet. 30 Days of Thankfulness~ I am thankful for: Vermont coffee My own bed time with 6 people in a confined space with 2 tv's equipped with cable 4 days of no cooking or cleaning time with my farmer real conversations, about something other than the farm 3 days of ... View Post
Are you Having A Hard Time Expecting Anything Good? Yeah, Me Too Day #13 of Thankfulness
We spend the day at the hospital. Faces familiar now. Routines established. We wait. Somehow, I have become numb to this process. I tried not to think about it. . . at all. I didn't pray. Honestly. I couldn't. I didn't want my hopes to be dashed. Yet. I didn't step into fear either. I am not sure which is better? The cliff of the ache is just out of reach and I don't want to be on the edge anymore. The burn that has been my constant friend has lightened in my heart. So, when test day came, I chose silence. I ... View Post
When You Feel Defeated Before The Day Even Begins Day # 11 of Thankfulness
I wake to a raging headache. CT scans, phone calls, all swim in my head. It's later than what I want. I feel defeated before I am even out of bed. I need to make breakfast, but I can hardly see. I want to just re-post yesterdays things I was thankful for, because today, I really don't want to be thankful for anything. I just want to go back to bed. Did you see it? Can you hear it? It's all about "I". The way to destruction is to fill your sentences with "I". What "I" need, what "I" want. Each time it will lead you to the ... View Post